Writing

Works unrelated to the Disability x Sexuality writings

Ode to My Spine

Oh, my twisted petrified cactus, they think they know you don’t they?

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Be Mean to Me

Attention, attention, it has come to my attention-

That compared to exclusion and subtleties, an honest ugly reaction has become my preference

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Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder

If I weren’t intertwined with trip wires - 

If my spine was not stone - 

If I grew slightly closer to the sun - 

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Reaper x Mortality

Pandora’s box opening surrounded me with fog and fear and screams. 

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Not Your Cherub

Some mistake the burning 

embers on my skin as an angelic glow

but when you came closer — 

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Seawater

I think I’ve swallowed too much seawater 

An array of salts one’s not suppose to digest 

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Tangible Feelings of Writing

A public diary

Wide eyed child

A quivering exhale

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Noticing

I've been feeling annoyed with myself for having more consistent mosquito bites of resentment towards people the more and more I unpack ableism.

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Joy

Someone once asked me why I don’t write more about my joy. 

I’ve found I am quite poisoned and eroded from grief;

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Deep Waters

I find myself dipping in deep waters despite knowing I cannot float

Still unsure if I run to feel the high or set my lungs ablaze

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Delights:

When people say my name

Finishing a roll of film 

The Leg Thing

Nostalgic songs

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Scoliosis Awareness

I didn’t realize there’s a #scoliosisawareness day. At first I thought it was goofy because I’m pretty sure we’re all aware it exists.

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Find Me

somewhere between optimistic nihilism and light hearted existentialism

Find me

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Body Memory

Body memory is a strange thing. 

You think you’re good to go, with all your sound logic, adaptive emotional intelligence, and level mind.

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Sisterly Survivor Guilt

I remember a time, months later, being on all fours 

in the middle of the living room floor, screaming at the ground in a full body sob - 

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Defective vessel

Gnarled tree trunk

Indestructible alloy surrounded by softness 

Bottomless well of forgiveness

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